.Sunday, July 27, 2014 ' 5:58 PM Y
Hi blog!
So long nv write blog le..Lazy lea..hahas..2day gg to write..Nth to do ma..hahas..
I at my girl house now..Before we went for our dinner, we tot of making some dessert to eat..We saw chocolate lava cake on fb..So we decided to make it..It my dear 1st time of doing it..
Will put those photos up l8r..
So we done making..It is nice! Just tat the first 2 cake too early release from the rubber cup(dk wat the name)..But the chocolate lava cake it a success!
my dear's mum still wan some more after finishing 1..hahas..quite sweet actually..Abit too oily but overall it is very nice!
After done eating our dinner and desserts, we went to bath..When im out from my bath, dear already put on her mask..I was shock when i entered the room..hahas..
Dear oso put a mask on my face too..Cooling sia..very shiok! hahas..
That all for 2day!
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.Friday, June 6, 2014 ' 4:25 PM Y
Hi readers,
Today im writing to express my feeling out again..I noe u guys will be like..wat?! again?! okay..This is the only place to express out as my dear don like to see mi share my thoughts or keep telling ppl my prob..especially to girls but i have more girl friends (female friends) den guy friends..jiiajiia will get jealous and think tat y i cant share with her or y wat i tell ppl de oso same as wat i tell her too..This will make her like less special too..Im not saying my dear not special, SHE IS SPECIAL in my heart. I wan to make her feel tat she is special.
Okay back to topic..This few days i feel very weird..feeling like im useless, dear like ignore mi(although she didn't), cant fall asleep, feeling very stress, sad and many more..So i think about wat actually happening to mi..I den notice tat my depression came back to mi..Although it is not tat serious den last time but it will affect mi a lot..Not only on my sch works, cc works but my relationship too..I wanna thanks my dear tat she been holding on and accompany mi through out this..I really need her with mi..without her, i wonder how my depression will going to more worst.. At first, i tot i was actually mood swings but things nv get better..I went on to the website to check for depression symptoms and i am correct....I am in depression...Below is one of the website..
- Sadness and or irritability
- Loss of interest or pleasure in everyday activities
- Loss of appetite—or increase in appetite
- Sleep disturbances—either insomnia or excessive sleeping
- Agitation or slowing in behavior
- Fatigue
- Feelings of worthlessness or guilt
- Problems with thinking or concentration
- Persistent thoughts of death or suicide
Below is another....
- Feeling sad or "empty"
- Feeling hopeless, irritable, anxious, or guilty
- Loss of interest in favorite activities
- Feeling very tired
- Not being able to concentrate or remember details
- Not being able to sleep, or sleeping too much
- Overeating, or not wanting to eat at all
- Thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts
- Aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems.
Women experience depression more often than men. Biological, life cycle, and hormonal factors that are unique to women may be linked to women's higher depression rate. Women with depression typically have symptoms of sadness, worthlessness, and guilt.
Men with depression are more likely to be very tired, irritable, and sometimes even angry. They may lose interest in work or activities they once enjoyed, and have sleep problems.
Older adults with depression may have less obvious symptoms, or they may be less likely to admit to feelings of sadness or grief. They also are more likely to have medical conditions like heart disease or stroke, which may cause or contribute to depression. Certain medications also can have side effects that contribute to depression.
Children with depression may pretend to be sick, refuse to go to school, cling to a parent, or worry that a parent may die. Older children or teens may get into trouble at school and be irritable. Because these signs can also be part of normal mood swings associated with certain childhood stages, it may be difficult to accurately diagnose a young person with depression.
How can I help a loved one who is depressed?
If you know someone who has depression, first help him or her see a doctor or mental health professional.
- Offer support, understanding, patience, and encouragement.
- Talk to him or her, and listen carefully.
- Never ignore comments about suicide, and report them to your loved one's therapist or doctor.
- Invite him or her out for walks, outings, and other activities.
- Remind him or her that with time and treatment, the depression will lift.
jiiajiiia did almost all this..thanks dear..without her, i wont noe how am i going to go through this..I actually better now..listening to music and do some small stuff to cool and relax myself...They said children would worry parents may die but im worry my dear would leave mi..Seeing mi like tat i scare i would scare her off..haiis...I den stress myself more..I stress my exams, cc stuff and tat y my depression back ba..Too many things i need to stress..I have been stressing myself for quite a long time, not only for awhile..so don say i cant handle stress..The stress i taking ppl cant really see it but it is quite strong..cc stuff not only doing community work but i oso help adviser too..This is more stress part..
Taking out time for dear have abit as i need to push away ppl..I not scare of pushing ppl away for my dear..Cuz i oso need to rest ar..Need to accompany my dear ar..She is more important..I oso not scare telling ppl tat fri(maybe), Sat and Sun is her time..Need mi and u need to go through my dear 1st..Tat wat i told the cc director but tis sun i going help her..Not every time i will accept cuz i see her oso really need mi..Plus i can pei jiiajiia on fri and sat..Sun jiiajiia can come over but jiiajiia tired tired...
Patricia sent mi this photo ytd and i find it quite true.."Everyone needs someone who can handle their dark side." jiiajiia is the one tat really can handle my dark side...Without her i think i will always outside finding trouble..fighting...all this...Thanks dear for all this support..I Love You!
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.Saturday, May 17, 2014 ' 11:30 PM Y
Hi readers,
Today I actually don feel like wake up for the retest 1..cuz I noe im gg to fail again..I nv even study..How to pass?! Tat time 48 ppl take the test and only 8 ppl pass..wth?! Now retest oso hard lea..but still I wake up for the retest..hope ther is open book or wat lo..btw jiiajiia keep saying wan to come over ytd nite..but I stop her as tis coming mon she got exam den only left today and tml to study le..plus she tired tired...So nv let jiiajiia come over..
I faster go prepare and go out le..stomachache sia...sian..maybe nervous ma..scare fail ma..$40 lea..Very meet them le..den went over to national training ground..Meet all the ppl le..fast sia..went to take attendance le..Suddenly got 1 problem...karen name is not in the list?!?! wth?! My name is inside ar..so cannot be karen forgot to pass up or sir forgot..cuz I ask karen to help mi give to sir ar..I actually tot of changing my name to karen..I don mind actually...or lend karen money den get back for sir..
I tell karen to call sir..don care kelvin or jason..juz call..kelvin keep no1 pick up so called jason..den pick up le..karen tell everything le..jason went to check and ask karen to pass phone to the mdm who in charge..After tat jiu okay le..We found out tat actually jason submitted the wrong name..Bryan not suppose to be inside..should be karen...
We tis time no need to take any test juz go through everything den we pass our theory..nice..den pratical oso..juz practice all tgt one shot..den count 1 to 10, 1 to 1 to sir Michael in Korean..Very fast jiu done le..heng ar..lucky I got come sia! Now im a certified 3rd class (provision) National Kyorugi(Sparring) Referee le!! yay!! finally..like some how buy to pass..don care le..at least I have pass!! yay!! $40 is worth it man!!
After tat, mi and pat went to near kevin work place to eat and see the training ther..The kids ther are so cute lo..hahahas..Like so fun ther hahas..Pat treat mi to eat oso..but I treat her back bubble tea..don really like gals treat ar..she say she wan to thank mi tat I accompany her go over..hahas no prob ar..hahas
jiiajiia angry with mi as jiiajiia feel tat zhzuhu go too near with pat le..scare pat will like mi..don worry la dear..we 2 really cannot be de..jiiajiia scare cuz I treat her nice and good..but I only treat her like a sis..so don worry..jiiajiia oso jealous of her..cuz I trest her good good..hao hao..zhuzhu don go too near to pat and don talk or text her so many time..zhuzhu promise le ar..After late lunch den I went to jiiajiia house le..Shall stop here le..
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.Thursday, May 15, 2014 ' 11:30 PM Y
Hi readers,
Im gg to shorten the story...
As usual..I wake jiiajiia up..den I went to sch..but for today, I nv go training as I gg to cc to help out..So I end sch early, I went hm slack and use com till it time to go down..Went to house visiting..Jason ask mi to bring cam cuz need to take photos..Funny thing is tat I saw 1 of my teacher...I was like.....omg....his parents live here..lol....After taking photos, I chiong down to ite to pass present to Patricia..tired of cuz..but I don wan to drag it too long ar..Patricia oso pass mi the rings make by her using 3d printer..thanks! After tat went to tamp to have dinner tgt..After tat den went hm...tml still got sch and I nv slp enough..haiis..my body like so weak le..need more rest..jiiajiia angry with mi as I told her tat I not gg ite..but I forgot tell her tat i gg to pass present..cuz I tot I say I not gg ite means not gg training ma..shall rest le..tml morning lea...
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.Wednesday, May 14, 2014 ' 9:32 PM Y
Hi readers,
It mi again..lol..of cuz mi only...Today nth much oso..
Today i need wake up early as my sch start 8am..I wake up 6.50am, headache sia but because of tis module make mi get up and go sch..My favorite lea..Photography really can make my day..Reached sch early..7.50am reached den waited awhile teacher came..Today teacher teach us how to use a dslr camera..den i teach my friends how to use..lol..I already handle a dslr camera so long..My teacher suddenly test mi and my group of friends as we keep on talking..I actually teaching them....nvm..My teacher asked den i whisper the ans to my friends and we all get correct..stupid teacher wan test mi on dslr...seriously?
Don look down on ppl okay?! I teach my friends about metering and u over heard mi and u went to teach the class too..seriously?! At 1st i tot u r a great teacher tat can share thoughts but now i feel that u juz like to gl ppl or look down on ppl..nvm..i will score on this module to let u see..Soon we went to take photos and come back to choose photos..Wat a lousy cam sia..focus not very gd..sian lo..Teacher say i got the framing and proportion..Of cuz la..i take photos so long le..I noe i still got more to learn..but at least i willing to share my knowledge and teach my classmates..i nv look down on ppl..After tat i went hm..nv go cds as teacher went to reservist..Went hm i do my photos all tis..Soon jiiajiia oso end sch le..jiiajiia say she cough till chest pain sia..haiis..worry lea..Keep ask jiiajiia go see doctor but jiiajiia nv go..haiis..finally jiiajiia after dinner jiu went to see doctor..jiiajiia rest early lo..Shall end here le..
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.Tuesday, May 13, 2014 ' 11:30 PM Y
Happy 3 years 3 months (39months) Anniversary!
Hi readers,
It is the day for mi and my dear jiiajiia..13 is the date where we get tgt..I noe it is juz month..but it oso a new starts for us..Getting tgt it not easy..Holding on is even more difficult..We oso learn to treasure each other more as we have loss each other ppl and we noe how the pain is like..It is some how like our test..Test how much we can go..It is fate to get 2 ppl tgt..
jiiajiia scare patricia like mi..don worry dear..i wont like her de..mi and her cannot be de..so don think too much..I woke up at 5.30am and went out to meet my cc friends..I meet them at coffee shop and after breakfast, my friend drove us to bedok reservoir and get ready to set up..we taking photos of sunrise!! It hard to meet up like tat..The sunrise indeed very beautiful! We made a new friend ther! Also a photographer..We exchange tips and views..He is a nice guy hahas..Taking photos tgt is fun! Hope can bring jiiajiia tgt and teach her more on photography..We took photos till 9am plus and we started to get going..My friends drove mi till Yio Chu Kang den i took bus 854 to Yishun..I reached jiiajiia house ard 11.30am..When i otw, i told jiiajiia tat i wont be going over as jiiajiia sick..den zhuzhu abit headache and tired..I didnt slp much ytd..
jiiajiia woke and saw mi..jiiajiia smile ^^ so long nv see jiiajiia smile le when i come all the way to yishun..Worth it le =D but jiiajiia nv kanna surprise till..jiiajiia say she feel tat i will come..nvm lo..I let jiiajiia see the photos i took as jiiajiia cannot go take photos with zhuzhu..After tat we went down to eat den went hm and rest..jiiajiia sick sick so need rest more..I went to slp oso..tired....Soon it dinner time, went to eat dinner and after awhile jiu went hm le..
Shall end here..Once again, Happy 3 years 3 months Anniversary!
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. ' 1:34 AM Y
Hi readers,
Today nth much to write but will update you wat i have done and express my feeling for today..
Today i woke up at 5.30am by my alarm as jiiajiia need to go sch..After i woke jiiajiia up, i very fast fall back to slp..Soon i woke up ard 12pm..Don feel like gg sch so i nv go prepare all tis..I went to brush up den went to cook noodles and eat..I on movie and eat at the same time..After i done my lunch, I went to on my com to do my stuff..At 1st i tot jiiajiia will come over but jiiajiia didnt..nvm lo..jiiajiia sick haiis..jiiajiia don take care herself de..Soon jiiajiia reached hm, i asked jiiajiia go rest and eat panadol..I continue to do my assignment..At 1st i wanted to go over and slp over de..but tot jiiajiia will come over so i didnt.. mama always say i go over so i didnt go over oso..
Soon it is dinner time le..so i went to eat dinner..den ard 10pm, yiyi and er yi came over and we went to market 85 and eat supper..I was gg to drive uncle lorry de..but it is hard den i expected..So at last uncle drove us ther..eat till very full sia..So full..
Late le..l8r i 5.30am need wake up to go take photos of sunrise at bedok reservoir..shall end here le..
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.Sunday, May 11, 2014 ' 11:30 PM Y
Hi readers,
ytd went to marina barrage..it was quite fun but tiring..hahas..Today wake up at 12pm and jiiajiia wake up at 12.30pm..After we done with our lunch, we went out and go over to my place..It is mother day! We reached bedok inter, we went to buy cake..After buying, we went hm..After I done shower and get prepared as I told my mum and dad tat I gg to treat them for a dinner..So my bro and sis went to get prepared too..After all done preparing, my mum say not gg le.....wat a news...sian lo..Before we done prepare, we cut the cake le..
I suggested to buy pizza since we not gg out for dinner..So didi took out $50 and treat us..mi and jiiajiia went down and buy..Waited for half an hr den get our pizza..Eat till very full sia..Still have leftover pizza..After done eating, we rest awhile and soon it time for jiiajiia to go hm le..tml still have sch..So I accompany jiiajiia to bedok inter and jiiajiia went to buy bread..for mei mei de..After buying, jiiajiia went to take buy and I saw kebab den I buy hm..Behind nth much le..shall stop here le..
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.Saturday, May 10, 2014 ' 11:30 PM Y
Hi readers,
I today woke up early as jiiajiia need to go for wedding lunch..lol..normally is dinner..So went to get prepared and go out..jiiajiia went to take mrt and I went to take bus 854..I 11.30am reached andy house..Woke him up when im in the bus by calling him..After having lunch at him house, we went back to my house as I need to take my camera and take a shower..jiiajiia wedding lunch end quite early so I asked jiiajiia whether she wan to come along anot..jiiajiia agreed and went to take train..2.30pm reached inter and ard 3pm I called jiiajiia and jiiajiia already reached bay front le..So we faster get ther and we took some photos..
After tat, we waited for izuan when we reached marina square as we want to have our dinner..Izuan went for wedding lunch too..After dinner, we started to walk to garden by the bay..We took quite alot of photos along the way..Very fast sky turn dark le..getting late le..Before we reach barrage, izuan need to go back hm le..So we say bye to him and we continue walk..jiiajiia getting very tired le..I oso actually but I need to be strong ar..Very fast reached barrage le..den I because of jiiajiia slippers and I quarrel with her..I bare foot and pass her my slippers but jiiajiia don wan..I insisted but jiiajiia don wan..I started to get angry and say I don care her le, I den walk off and go take my photos..Im juz being care.....her foot pain and turn red..I see le heart pain ah..den my slippers bigger so wont be so pain but jiu don wan...haiis....After awhile we okay le..den we continue take photos..We even took those like wedding couples shots..help peng and ayu..ayu help mi and jiiajiia..lol..
Cuz we keep taking photos..den we like neglect andy sia..Feel so bad..After awhile, it time for us to go back hm le..Late le..Was planned to go back my hm but so late le..so we took cab to yishun and I stay over..peng they all took another cab..Reached hm shower den went to mac den came back hm jiu already 3am plus le..Soon we went to slp le..Shall end here le..
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. ' 12:25 AM Y
Hi readers,
I going to shorten the story..
Early 3 years 3 months (38months) Anniversay present!
This morning I nv go to sch but lay on my bed till 11am den I went to get prepared..Thinking how to bring the flowers to jiiajiia sch and give her..Didn't tell her I gg as I wan to give her a surprise..So I went out at 2pm and stand all the way till cck ite..Wat a long ride..I called karen and ask her wher is the bakery class and she told mi blk 2 but donno which floor..I see the lobby floor information and I feel tat lvl 4 is the class..So I went to to lvl 4 and u noe wat when the door open, I saw some1 I don like..Den I walk another way but means tat it is confirmed ther is the class liao..I reached cck ite ard 3.40pm plus..Waited till 4.30pm jiiajiia den say she went to locker..So I called jiiajiia but she give mi the angry or fierce fierce voice..I sian lo..Meet her at lvl 2 and pass it to her le..jiiajiia nv kanna surprise by mi..
jiiajiia said she got the feeling tat i came..I tot tat bloody guy go tell her..After jiiajiia receive the flowers and I see her face like not very happy like tat..Tis is wat I feel....jiiajiia face like normal..nit like last time I give her presents and she smile till so happy..but I nv see tis time..I feel I have wasted my efforts and make mi don feel like making anything next time..like so shag like tat..Hope I think too much ba..but tis is my feel ar...haiis..After tat we home tgt..I should have go and shake hand and talk to tat guy ah! Reached hm, we rest awhile den went to eat..After eat we continue rest and after awhile, jiiajiia bring the flowers go outside let papa and ah yi see...They give mi the smile is like so much better den jiiajiia de..haiis..but jiiajiia got smile tgt with them..y jiiajiia at 1st nv like tat lea? I make so much effort on the flowers u noe? Can you feel it? I even go all the way down too...After chatting, jiiajiia slp on my lap and very fast..haven 5 min jiu slp so sound on my lap le..I continue play phone all tis den I see her phone and found out tat jiiajiia actually got quite a number of photos didn't send mi lo..sian..den in her phone I saw jiiajiia with tat guys I jiu sian..not happy..haiis..I noe jiiajiia say they 2 nth but jiu don like..same as jiiajiia don like I go near to other gals..After tat I take all the clothes and put wher jiiajiia always put..den I open up the ti lam..Now 12.20am..I close the door and windows den on the air con..juz now papa came in and say l8r wan in jiu on lo..I heard he say wat jump electricity thing de..donno la..lol..Now laying down le..gg slp de..can see jiiajiia tired lo..always say not tired..mouth to hard...stubborn.....
shall end here..
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.Wednesday, May 7, 2014 ' 1:06 AM Y
Hi readers,
starting to lazy to write le..
Today nth much oso..Went sch and did my sch stuff and meet xue qi cuz to collect my flowers as xue qi help mi to wrap up..She 3am den went to slp sia..Really thanks! thanks alot! Really need to treat her eat one day..ps sia..
After collect den I went hm..holding it and walk hm..ppl keep looking sia..Feel weird but happy at the same time hahas ^^ Really put in alot of effort inside..Not to mention xue qi oso..She help mi alot..After reached hm, I get all my cop stuff and went down for dinner with family..After dinner, I went to cc for cop..Today went to check blks..As ep day coming..There will be a small role play..So firefighters need space and the place must be safe..So went we to check..My blk highest is 25 sia..high sia..But unlucky..I wan to take a nice view but cant..cuz and walls block my view..sian..After done, we went back to cc le..Btw cert vest changed le..but the book cannot put in..lol..Shall rest le..
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.Tuesday, May 6, 2014 ' 2:00 AM Y
Hi readers,
Today I ended sch at 5.30pm and xue qi waited for mi to end my sch..She waited 1 and a half hr..psps..So after sch, I went over to house to do the flowers..I eat dinner at her house..1st time tried her cooking..After dinner, I took photos of her as it is for my exhibition thing..After tat we started to do the flowers..Need to think how to wrap up all tis..Flowers keep getting loss so need to touch up here and ther..Do till 12.30am den go hm..dear angry cuz stay at gal house till so late..jiiajiia don like..psps zhuzhu next time wont le..hao ma? After tat I 1am plus reached hm..After went to shower and went to rest le..shall end here..
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.Thursday, May 1, 2014 ' 12:00 AM Y
Hi readers,
Now 1.36am, damm full now..Juz now went down with mama go buy burgers as mama nv try those new burgers before hahas..Fat liao la..Eat so much at tis timing..Quite miss jiiajiia de and very keen to see jiiajiia beside mi when i wake up =D miss that feeling..I really spent alot effort..As wat i told Xue Qi..Even Xue Qi can see i very hardworking..I not only spent money but my time, my slp, my health and others..Really wan to show and make it up to jiiajiia..I slp 3 hrs ytd only..tired...Now 2.20am, shall stop doing flowers..my nose cmi..Shall go slp le..Now 2.33am..on bed le..gg rest den flowers shall do other days..brb!
I forgot wat time I wake up le but when I wake up, I saw jiiajiia standing in front of my eyes! *happy* hug jiiajiia den asked jiiajiia to lay beside mi but she don wan at 1st..After awhile jiiajiia came and lay beside mi ^^ hug and rest for awhile and I did abit of workout den went to eat lunch as mama brought back for us..After lunch, I went to get shower and get ready to go out..We went to tamp but in between, we got abit of small quarrel abt the gal she don like..After awhile we okay le..We went to buy movie tickets 1st before we went to shop..We decided to watch "Oculus" a horror movie as spider man 2 de tickets selling very fast..After done buying tickets, we went to shop for presents for Patricia and Xue Qi..We buy a cross for Patricia and brought a bracelet from citigem for Xue Qi..
After done with presents, we went to shop ard and wait for time to reach..Soon it ard 5pm le..We chiong back to shaw and catch our movie..The show still okay..but don really understand the story..I only noe it all abt the mirror tat is 1 wan doing all the curse...After movie, we continue to shop as it is still early for dinner..We don really feel hungry yet..After awhile, we went to eat chicken rice outside of the mall..Before we went out, we saw the korean bbq buffet seem nice and tempting..Shall go and try 1 day..hahas..Time flies, soon jiiajiia need go hm le..So I send jiiajiia go bus 969 and I took bus 69..
After shower, continue wat I haven't finish tgt with jiiajiia on the phone..Shall end here le..
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.Wednesday, April 30, 2014 ' 11:44 PM Y
Hi readers,
back on writing again..Okay let go..
I ytd night went down to eat with peng and ayu ard 12am plus..I went to try the new burger..Not bad..Finally I eat sth which is spicy enough in mac..Nice! After eating I went back hm..Reached hm ard 2am plus and I started to do my photos and rose..Do till 3am plus 4am den rest..Before I started to do den got prob..haiis..shag..Tired sia after done everything..Still got alot more to do..Need spent more money too..After done, I went to pei jiiajiia slp on phone..Really feel my bone resting..Slp till 7am den wake up and chiong preparing cuz gg late le..
Very fast done le jiu went out le..7.50am plus reached sch..lucky not late..Went in class den not much ppl inside..Lesson nth much..Eat breakfast when having break..After lesson end, we went for lunch..After lunch den slack at ray class..tired...After 2hrs of waiting, finally 2pm gg for cds..I suddenly rmb wat Xue Qi and my conversation abt dear de..I forgot wat I asked her but we both answered with the same answer..jiiajiia most attractive part is her eyes! hahas same answer sia..hahas Very attractive indeed hahas! Now 3pm still in cds..Watching movie..damm sian..I den keep playing game, 2048. This game becoming more and more challenging. Soon the lesson ended and i went hm..Was thinking to go dear house de but i still got things to do so cant..haiis..
After I reached hm, dear voice chat mi..dear said love you. I reply I love you den i told dear that why every time the I missing? I told dear that she always eat the I away..I told dear before tat saying "love you" without the I means like who? no1? People tends to short cut too much..I love you is more sincere..I told jiiajiia alot of times le..7pm, mi and jiiajiia done with dinner le..I purposely wait awhile see jiiajiia will text mi anot but nv so i text jiiajiia and jiiajiia reply..Okay..den i purposely wait see jiiajiia will call mi anot..I text jiiajiia some more but jiiajiia nv call..haiis.....jiiajiia still say miss zhuzhu..haiis...I donno how to tell jiiajiia, not i wan to hide but it hard to say..haiis..I scare will make we both sad..but still i asked and say le..I actually glad to her jiiajiia wan to call zhuzhu de..zhuzhu trust jiiajiia jiu almost every time the timing when jiiajiia wan call, zhuzhu jiu called jiiajiia le..
When going through Facebook, I saw my friend posted something..It a quote "You don't need someone to complete you. You only need someone to accept you completely." It a good quote and i wanted to asked jiiajiia that did jiiajiia accept mi completely? If jiiajiia accept mi completely, jiiajiia jiu wont be so xin gu..I noe i do something wrong and i trying my best to put in all my effort juz to make jiiajiia happy..Of cuz not only wan to make jiiajiia happy but of cuz build up jiiajiia de trust of zhuzhu..zhuzhu wont do anything stupid anymore i promise with my life!
Talking with dear on phone and dear say she coming over tml =D *happy*jumping ard* I haven tell jiiajiia y i keep playing and get so high points for my game, 2048. Cuz i saw her friends oso playing and get so high points and i wan to do something tat jiiajiia can use mi to show off to her friends and say, "see my bf so good!" or "see my bf do tis for mi!" I will be very happy cuz i wan show other ppl tat not all guys is bad, maybe i did something bad but i go and comfort and mii bu what i have done wrong. I wan jiiajiia to be happy and be proud to be with mi! dear told mi say her friend de score is 6 digit and i was like....siao..how to beat sia...sian..zhuzhu missing jiiajiia..Cant wait for jiiajiia to come over..
Now 11.42pm, jiiajiia asked jiiajiia go slp slp as jiiajiia tml 8am need wake up and come over..Before tat, we been chatting and happened alot of things..But i wan to thanks Alicia! She really gd..helping mi from my back..thank you soo much! I only can wait......wait till jiiajiia really back..I scare when jiiajiia is back, im no longer there le..Lets hope things get well soon..Shall end here le..Still haven finish my origami flowers..This pack give mi alot of prob...
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.Tuesday, April 29, 2014 ' 6:59 PM Y
Hi readers,
Blog really help mi alot..It a place for mi to throw my feeling and emotional in..Okay lets start..
This morning, I woke my by my alarm 7am to wake jiiajiia up..After wake jiiajiia up le den I went back to slp..I woke up at 10.30am as I have a make up class..Went to prepare and go out..I did a funny dream..Keep dreaming abt the origami flowers..In my dreams oso doing sia..Means my heart and brain really keen to finish and pass to jiiajiia the flowers I make..
Reached sch at 11.45am..Went to class at 12pm..12.30pm jiiajiia text mi say she confirmed gg bali le..I noe jiiajiia happy can go oversea and take plane..I oso cannot stop jiiajiia from gg..Is sth she like but I bu fang xin..haiis..Feel worry now even though dear haven go yet..jiiajiia donno how to take care herself de..I actually hope jiiajiia don go but I cannot like tat..haiis..What to do? haiis..jiiajiia happy jiu hao..
Asked jiiajiia and jiiajiia say gg 5 days ard last week of june..haiis..After tis class den went to another class..Soon the class oso ended but the teacher saw my website den want to hire mi to help her take some photos as she said google have copyright things..I told her ok but need to see my time..After tat I went to another class and I brought burger to eat..Sian..jiiajiia with friends treat mi cold cold..Awhile den reply mi..haiis..wonder when jiiajiia will take her own initiative to come find mi..haiis..I feel like im disturbing jiiajiia..haiis..Im planning to ton l8r and do my hmwk le den do the rose..Wan faster done and need wrap..Since tml lesson start at 8am..Now 5.01pm, meeting Xue Qi l8r to get the stuff and pay her back..Thank you so much! 5.30pm i ended sch and went to take bus to bedok inter and meet Xue Qi to take things and went hm..6.13pm i reached hm..
Everyday thinking how to make jiiajiia happy..Now keep thinking abt the flowers how to make it nice all tis cuz wan give jiiajiia ma..Juz now in sch den i found out tat tkd grading is on sun and not sat so sun i cant go with jiiajiia..haiis..Now 6.56pm, I see back all our photos and my heart started to pain..haiis..jiiajiia rarely take photos send zhuzhu le..oso not like last time love zhuzhu and nv come find zhuzhu..jiiajiia last time not free will oso take time out to find zhuzhu..lie to mama or wat jiiajiia still will come find zhuzhu..jiiajiia oso don care tired anot jiiajiia oso will come find zhuzhu de..haiis..pain~
7pm, I went to shower den 7.30pm done shower and went down cc..Help them take photos and get the try of taking videos..Quite fun and interesting actually..Asked them abt camera stuff and speedlight things as I need to buy..Very fast ended and I went hm..Peng say he wan come over to put music into his phone..After I reached hm, I called dear and awhile more peng came over le..Now on phone can feel jiiajiia de care all tis..Not like in phone message so cold le..I took a photo of the origami rose and let dear to have a preview of her present..Will post the photo l8r..Now 11.40pm le..jiiajiia haven slp..jiiajiia cant slp..Now trying to make jiiajiia slp slp..Shall end here le..
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.Monday, April 28, 2014 ' 1:35 AM Y
Hi readers,
Not going to write much for today..My dear is sick from ytd steamboat till now haven recover..*sayang* zhuzhu heart pain =( see jiiajiia like tat..haiis *heart pain* jiiajiia sore throat and runny nose for 2 days le..Blow nose till the nose so red and pain..Some more dear blow so hard..den got blood..haiis..I don let dear go sch tml as she is sick and wan her to stay at to rest but dear don wan..dear say tml is donno wat module de last lesson so wan to go..I keep stopping dear but still dear still wan to go..den u gave up..I let dear go..jiiajiia health is more important ar..I will worry 1..jiiajiia say understand but y let mi feel so worry..I noe ur exam is coming but health more important..I noe u don wan to fail but still health more important..I actually can stay at dear house till tml and stop dear from gg to sch but I didn't cuz I don wan to force..I feel so worry u noe? So dammm worry..haiis..
jiiajiia say jiiajiia will tell mi everything but I scare jiiajiia will forget and nv say ar..Will scare jiiajiia donno how to take care of herself..den jiiajiia nv say I oso donno..What if jiiajiia hide from mi? Even though promise say cannot hide or lie but if jiiajiia hide I oso donno..but if I find out......I will be damm angry..jiiajiia noe I can be crazy..but of cuz wont hit or hurt jiiajiia..jiiajiia pls don let zhuzhu so worry hao ma? ur health is more important..zhuzhu so worry u noe? haiis..
shall end here..
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.Friday, April 25, 2014 ' 2:05 AM Y
Hi readers,
I gg to shorten the story..so late le..need to rest..okay here we go..
I bring my cam go sch..damm heavy sia..After sch I went to ite for tkd training and patricia is my 1st model..thank you so much mei! After take photo, went to training and I train till esther vomit..So sorry doesn't mean it..After training went to tamp to eat den go hm..After shower meet ayu and talk abt the exhibition thing and asking ayu is okay to be my model and she okay..accompany ayu go eat den go hm..Now 2.03am le..pei my dear sleeping on phone..gg rest le..tml 9am class..shall slp le..
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.Wednesday, April 23, 2014 ' 9:01 PM Y
Hi readers,
Didn't noe I will write my blog so early..Actually I nv slp the whole nite and l8r I have a 8am class..shit..l8r cds 2-5pm im not gg..Go hm rest better..Hope jiiajiia not angry tat I nv slp..Very fast 5.30am le..Wake jiiajiia up den told jiiajiia tat I nv slp but jiiajiia like don care don care de..haiis..like so cold..I cant feel jiiajiia heart pain zhuzhu..I noe zhuzhu bu guai..Maybe I expect too much le ba..Like tat will make jiiajiia very stress..Maybe jiiajiia tired, maybe I think too much? Maybe my expectation too high le ba..haiis..Now 5.52am le..shall get up and get prepared..6am done brush up le..Saw jiiajiia text at 6.04am..Finally can feel jiiajiia de care le *happy* It I think too much plus jiiajiia tired ba..Mi and dear having a cute conversation, shall post the photo conversation l8r at the end of the blog.
jiiajiia told mi tat I wake her up at the worng time..dear say 5am but I woke her up at 5.30am..What is wrong with mi..stm getting worst..I nv slp oso will tired sia..head abit pain..Shall go shower..should be feeling better after tat..btw dear went out so early..6.13am jiu go out le..Now 6.37am le..I have done shower and gg out soon..Was thinking wanted to bring camera anot as tis module will be doing photography and video den after discussing with dear better not bring..scare spoilt..Hope I will like tis module..6.42am went out of my house and went to coffee shop for breakfast..I ate vegetarian bee hoon..so long nv so early eat breakfast le..like so relax..hahas..After eating, I went to buy coffee..shiock! hahas..
7.15am I went to bus stop and wait for bus..The bus came quite fast..Very fast reached inter le..Soon bus 69 came and I board up the bus..Otw to sch dear text mi abt esther, will put out the photo conversation up l8r at the end on the blog. Very soon reached sch le and saw 2 friends so I talk to them awhile den I went to class..So looking forward to the class..Now 9.09am le..Teacher talk abt photography and video things..*So happy* Very fast class ended..10.30am jiu end liao..So early cuz class should end at 12pm de..So class ended early, mi and andy went to eat lunch den went to sim lim as i wan to buy some camera things. I wan to check out some things too..11.02am reached bugis and we walked ther..After walking awhile, I brought lens hood for $19 *happy*..At least i got wat i wanted..Saw screen protector $15, abit too ex so didn't get it..After tat we went to 1st floor which like to scam ppl 1..We walk walk and we went to see camera den I asked abt the screen protector and u noe how much he said? he said $65 and i almost throw a punch to his face sia....seriously..u think i so easy kanna scam by u? After tat we went off..I was actually quite sleepy and because of tat incident, I become so awake...I keep scolding when otw to bugis...
After walking awhile, we planned to go hm..1.30pm we took train and 1.50pm reached bedok..2.13pm reached hm..Went to shower and do my cam den now com till 4.42pm.. Peng came over ard 6pm plus as he need to do his ns things den we went down for dinner..He got work l8r on..After dinner he went for his work and i went hm pei jiiajiia and do my com stuff..Now 9.03pm le..Shall rest le..Going pei jiiajiia orh orh =) Photos is coming up..i noe u guys r waiting hahas..Night!
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. ' 1:57 AM Y
Hi readers,
Today morning woke up by my alarm 7am cuz jiiajiia need wake up for sch le..Wake jiiajiia up jiu went back to slp le..Woke up at 12pm..Ate 2 bread with nutella..So lazy go sch...Now 12.49pm..Started to get prepared..1.09pm went out of my house..Now 1.12pm in bus le..Reached sch abit early..1.45pm..Waited awhile teacher came and all the ppl ther I donno..sian..4pm class ended and Andy called mi say peng choosing cds so I went down and meet him..aiya 1st day class late nvm..hahas..After done we went up class..we late half an hour sia..lol now 4.50pm class ended..lol end early some more..only stay in class like 15-20mins only..lolol..Went to buy burger and eat..So long nv eat western store de burger le..Nice!
After eating, I went hm as peng need to come over and use my com to book his ns medical check up..His com cant book..donno why..Peng came oso cannot find the thing..After awhile we gave up den we played his new phone s5..nice sia..After awhile, went down with mama and papa and mei mei and didi go eat dinner at downstair de coffee shop..Peng went to eat with friends..Eating half way, my er yi called mi say the kor kor last time live at er yi house de..haiis 32yrs old only sia..Police say motor slip and hit the pole..but cannot be ma..straight road lea..I think is car hit till and run..9.07pm reached kor kor here..kor kor have a peaceful road..Rest in peace..
Saw kor kor de gf cried till like tat..I oso feel very sad..Kor kor the father and sister juz reached as they were oversea and they rush down..Feel sad sia..Now 11pm le..11.12pm, gg hm le, took cab and 11.38pm reached hm..dear cant slp but after i called dear, she very fast jiu slp le..hahas cute cute de..dear miss mi den cant slp..I do my project and things..bobby came in my room and sit on my bed like a boss..I saw the newspaper tat got kor kor de..Will post the photos l8r..Now 2am liao..Need to rest le..Tml morning lesson sia..Night ppl!
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.Sunday, April 20, 2014 ' 4:16 AM Y
HI readers,
yea it mi again..lol
1.30am, we went out quietly as we wanted to go mac for supper..On the way to mac, I call my friend ray to come along..So long nv meet him le..Brought hot chocolate for dear den I waited for my friend..He reached abt 2.15am..We den started to order food..jiiajiia wan to eat corn so I change my fries to corn and buy 1 more corn for her..hehe so dear got 2 corn ^^ We chat and slack till 3.30am den we started to go back hm..4am den reached hm..now 4.15am le..shall go slp 1st..good night readers..Will be back when I wake up =) brb!
Hi guys! Im back! Woke up at 1pm and nua on bed till 2.30pm..Went to brush up and eat lunch..now 3.11pm le..Now 5.16pm le..so sian..We watched show and nua on bed..Very fast it dinner time le! We ate dinner and prepare to go out cuz dear and yiying gg take money..They say 7.30pm go out so we prepare hao le jiu went out le..We waited till 8.15pm den go register cuz the person say we abit early..After register, dear and yiying went to take free food..It McChicken..No vegetable and sauce =.= so budget..At least put vegetable ma..After eat le..soon it time to go in..Dear and yiying went up to take money we den jiu go off le..
yiying went hm den mi and dear go to northpoint de harvey norman to see my camera..Wanted to buy sooo much! I asked and the person give my discounts and alot of free gifts even though the free gifts not very tempting but I asked them tat they have battery grip anot and juz nice left 1! wooohoo den I asked abt the total price and he give mi discount all tis so total is $2110..Ex sia but without the discount the camera and the lens is equally to tat price....So I called mama if I can lend money 1st..Buy early lo cuz the price and the battery grip is tempting ah..hahas..mama agreed! soo happy sia =D Buy le jiu went to inter and took bus 854 hm..Reached hm le..papa oso nv say alot of things and nv scold..hmmm heng ar..hahas..*happy*
Shall end here le..behind nth much jiu after shower den unbox everything lo..hahas..btw Happy Easter Day!! tata!
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