.Sunday, June 1, 2014 ' 11:30 PM Y
Hi readers,
Woke up le, went prepared and go out meet Shao Juan and Xue Qi in bedok platform..Meet them le den noe yan chu nv come =.= nvm..we will have fun still..I give shao juan present le jiu went to bugis for a stroll and we buy things..walk walk here, walk walk ther..We find a store tat can make a badge or tag or magnet de..so we send to photo to the boss and we make 3 keychain badge..Thinking to make with jiiajiia next time when I bring her here..so cool hahas..Thinking to make with bros too..hahas! Brought something for mama oso..for gua sa de..cuz last time de donno lost le or break le..
We went to find buffet to eat korean de..cuz eat the restaurant ther de price is almost same as the buffet so we decided to have buffet instead..I was planning to get momiji but very ex sia...So we went to eat..we started to eat at 5.30pm and we leave at 7.30pm..damm full sia..but tis 1 abit ex cuz they nv say the gst and service charge haven included..nvm lo..but I like the korean rice cake hahas..After eating we walk awhile den take bus hm..Eat alot sia today...lol..Once again Happy advance 21st Birthday! Pre 21st actually cuz tml is actual hahahas..Shall end here le..
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.Tuesday, May 27, 2014 ' 11:30 PM Y
Hi readers,
Today sch start late so wake up late oso hahas..Today writing tis blog is to express my feeling..So wat happened is tat..I feel tat jiiajiia don really telling mi wat she doing..Maybe I always tell her and I hope she will do the same thing back ba..She complain when tat time I in pub den I message her slow..I noe she worried..Worried tat gals come towards mi..
I did sent her message but it hard for mi to keep track of time but still I try to keep message her after a few minutes..But today, she after sent mi say eat baobao le..on 11.41am den I woke up and text her a few den she replied on 12.13pm..Okay she said she busy as she carrying stuff..but when she go to sch..she don even tell mi tat she is on bus, train all tis..Usually she does..okay not usually..is last time..even very before we broke up..way before..ya I say way before..
so y didn't I said last time? Cuz last time I don care..Cuz I wont really think of her but only myself..But now y am I stressing myself so much? Should I change back to last time? So I have lesser stress? Maybe I think too much? Or should I do the same thing like wat she is doing? Okay she today indirectly said she is on train but wat abt bus? 8.07am, she reached sch as tat time she told mi..10.28am den told mi tat she going in for test le..From 8 to 10.30 how long is tat? 2 & 1/2 hrs and wat the fk is she doing in the 2 & 1/2 hrs? She didn't even text mi?! This is not the 1st time le..
Okay maybe I need to control my emotional now..Cooling down 1st..Okay on the same time..10.28am she sent test hao le..wat is going on? go in and come out? after tat 10.29am she say die liao..I oso noe will die..go in and come out..nv do anything..Okay maybe u can tell mi it the phone reception prob so nv sent out on time..On 10.29am she said die liao lo till 11.22am she said she gg eat..wat she doing?
Maybe I expect too much from her? I stressing her too much? Maybe I over care? Or tis is not even care? Den I bo cha liao..Not going to ask so much..Nv say den suan liao lo..since ppl don wan say..Maybe she feel I busybody..I oso don wan tell her I at wher liao all tis..L8r she find I like bo liao..even at hm oso nv tell mi wat she doing..Den I oso don wan say..I nv tell her wher am I den she will ask..It the same thing..Wat do you feel? Of I don tell u wher or wat am I doing..Den I oso found out something..When she nth to do at hm, she message mi more den she in sch..like a few minutes 1 message..Even when she slp den i do sth or i go wher will tell her as i scare her worry..maybe next time no need ba..I juz wan more details.....suan le..I expect too much le..Need to reduce ba..
I oso found out tat she don post our photo on instagram..Normally she does but now only im doing it..Maybe she finds tat she tgt with mi will throw her face ba......suan le...y am i fking stress now...haiis...Lucky i have u blog..at least i can express all my feeling out here..so glad tat i still have a blog...Shall stop here le..
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.Wednesday, May 21, 2014 ' 11:00 PM Y
Hi readers,
I went to sch and reached class on time, den i see teacher nv start class so i went out with friends..After tat we came back and he say he will mark us late. I was like wtf?! If u wan do things till like tat den come at mi man..i not scare..You oso nv start the lesson on time and y not i cant go out?
After tat we went to
rest and get ready for
cds..Xue Qi suddenly text mi and asked mi abt whether i eat hello panda and i said yes..She show mi a whole box of hello panda..alot sia..1.30pm she meet mi and pass mi 30 packets..After tat, i went to class and
watched "Sandcastle" a local movie..Quite meaningful..After tat jiu go hm le..Go hm le rest awhile den go busy with cc stuff..busy with tis coming sat ep day..shall end here le..
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.Monday, May 19, 2014 ' 11:30 PM Y
Hi readers,
Today nth much actually..I went to sch den do nth but keep playing game..nth to do lo..After tat went hm..did some workout den go shower..Micheal grandma pass away ytd night..so l8r gg to songka..mama today nv cook so went down to eat den went to songka..Adviser got come..chit chat awhile den he go off le..gg to jio him for my birthday hahas..ya..actually i still abit angry..haiis..slowly lo..Next mon gg to help out in the pap thing..shall end here le..
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.Wednesday, April 16, 2014 ' 2:03 AM Y
Hi readers,
Wa..Ytd nite shouldn't drink coffee sia! I cant slp=.= I turn here and ther till 3am plus 4am like tat slowly den slp sia..shag..Wake up at 7am to tell dear to wake up le..den I lay down till 7.30am cai wake up..abit tired..jiiajiia angry..psps..don mean to slp so late de..don angry oh..After get up le, I slowly get prepared..Jayson say he meet mi at bedok 8.40am so I slowly lo..since still got so much time..
8.36am I went out..Should have go out earlier..late liao sure kanna gan by him...=.= dear ate Nutella with bread..glad she haven eaten sth..but cannot eat too much Nutella oh..Must drink more water oh..So long nv so early go ite le..like last time gg sch to study sia..hahahas
Reached abit late like ard 9.20am? So i pass pat extension cable den mi and jayson went to eat..Ate Chicken rice..Eat halfway pat jiu text mi say start liao and tell mi faster..After eat jiu faster went up le den we started to give flyer..I went back to my mobile lab too..Saw a lot of my teachers =) So long nv see them le..Talk to Basheer for awhile too..Bash ask mi and dear and i told him we don have le..haiis wish i no need say tat..He ask mi wat happened so i told him..Basheer say wan knock my head..I noe it i not good..HE say dear is a very good gal..Rarely see some1 tat will care so much and treat mi so good..I noe ar..Is zhuzhu blur blur..gong gong..Is zhuzhu bu hao..haiis..zhuzhu wan jiiajiia =(
After talking finish, i went back..kanna scold cuz cannot find mi..plus my grp members kanna ask den all blur blur donno do wat..haiis...So after scolding, i gather my grp 3 to the back..I told them tat i wont scold them cuz i didn't do a gd job too..so i brief them wat to do and where to go den i dismiss them..I walk ard with Jayson den after awhile we plan to wear padding cuz very hard to pull ppl juz by asking them to join or giving them flyer..They need to see some performers to attract them..So we did kicking and a bit of light sparring..Very fast the event ends, of cuz alot of things but hard to explain everything out only can see photos..Oh ya sir drive mi and 2 junior to Simpang bedok to eat fishball noodles..I treat them drinks..Drinks tgt $7 sia..Means i eat 1 fishball noodles $7 =.= Lucky not everytime..They heng lo..So we rush back after eating and when we reach, they started to keep le..3pm le ma..So we help to keep and wait here and there..Sir ask all the committees to the back..Should be kanna scold den i wait for pat lo..Wait till 2 hrs den done sia...so damm long...Pat say they talking who got potential all tis..Should be stepping down and now gg to see who gd enough to take over the places..hahas good luck juniors! So i went back hm..pat actually asked mi go sengkang eat with her but i cant and too tired to go till so far..Cuz i still got cop to do l8r..
So i went hm den called jiiajiia..miss her so much..unpack things and rest for l8r cop..Actually called jiiajiia a lot of times when i resting and doing my photos..I called 17 times..jiiajiia answered and dear told mi tat she was helping her mum with the food and house chores..I den continue to do my photos, very fast 7pm le and jiiajiia say she gg eat dinner. Dear requested to hang up the phone cuz i 7.30 need go down for cop plus tonight cant pei jiiajiia slp slp den i don wan to hang up but still hang up le..haiis..Why the hang up feels like hanging myself up..so hard...haiis..Very fast i went down for cop..cop today do banner..tie up the banner and i almost got a rope burn..Told jiiajiia but i cant feel her care..haiis..Actually both of my instep pain..ya both...i did told jiiajiia but i feel any care, maybe abit ba..scolding mi so careless instead of sayang mi or asking mi..haiis...dear, do u noe tat ur 1 word makes alot of different? haiis..After cop, i go listen abt the youth pap things..Will go in ba..Help out in PAP will be fun? I guess..but of cuz i told them i wont be very active cuz i got too much things..Family, Sch, TKD, Friends, CC, RC and of cuz more important my dear! I will spend more time on dear! More and more things coming into my life but of cuz dear will be the priority of everythings!
Readers will feel abit weird as ther is no time indication cuz i have no time to write on the spot and now i trying to rmb everything wat happened from morning till now..Now 1.15am and i still writing..Started to like writing blog again..seriously blog is a place for mi to blast all my feelings out man so readers u might get bored to my blog post..Sorry~ Okay back to wat i gg write..
So i went hm after my cop den i go to have my light dinner since i nv take my dinner l8r jiiajiia angry so i went to eat..When i was eating halfway, my phone rings~ it the heart to heart ringtone! means it jiiajiia called! I was eating halfway and i jump up sia..den chiong to pick my phone cuz it has been a long time i have heard tis ringtone le..means jiiajiia very long nv call zhuzhu le..*happy* jiiajiia called and plus jiiajiia told mi tat her phone wont take away 1st..tml den take away cuz dear gg changing phone..So i ask jiiajiia to slp early as dear tml 5am need wake up and have practical test..jia you jia you oh!! zhuzhu will always be here for you de =) After finish eating, i continue writing my blog as my mum went shower den i told dear abt CCA fair de things..I told jiiajiia abt i hold a gal as she holding power pack for sir jason so need support her from behind..white belt some more..I explain asi scare jiiajiia misunderstood den jiiajiia told mi tat she wont jealous...My heart juz crack..haiis...After tat i went to shower and jiiajiia slp le..Continue my blog and listening to emo songs till now 1.55am..haiis...
LOVE how hard can u hurt mi? Come ba..HURT mi ba! No matter how i will stand up again and win jiiajiia back de! Stab mi to the heart ba..I will still endure de..cuz i wan to go for my happiness and no1 can stop mi! Saw a chinese quote and it says tat pain is ytd de but happiness is tml! Will put the photo up..late le, shall go rest le..jiiajiia waiting for mi on bed le..even it is through phone but i can hear dear de breathing ^^ *happy*
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.Saturday, April 12, 2014 ' 8:14 AM Y
Hi readers,
Sorry to u guys to keep reading my boring blog..
7.15am, I woke up as I dream abt dear den I realise tat I didn't wake up at 5.30am to wake dear up..sian..she text mi say she ending the call as she need to get prepared le..so I text her..Dear reply and tell mi to go slp..normally she tell mi go slp the next moment she will be beside my bed so I good boy and go slp..
Idk y..how I turn here and ther oso cant seem to slp..8am le..dear text mi say she reached sch le..sian..I so wish tat she bluff mi abt the event things and come over to find mi..I noe it abit impossible but I still wish..haiis..I miss my dear...Now 8.10am le..I still don have the feel to slp..juz now be4 dear text mi..I was turning here and ther already have suicidal thoughts le..haiis..I really scare 1 day I really go suicide den no1 will take care of jiiajiia le..
If I suicide means some1 replace mi le..but I will still watch her from far..be her only guardian..now 8.14am le..shall go slp awhile..brb..Im back..now 8.43am..cant seem to slp..sian..scare jiiajiia angry..haiis..I miss jiiajiia soo much..text dear..dear like don wan talk to mi =( wat can I do? I tried all my best not to show emotional in front of her but everytime I heard her voice I feel like crying den she sometime talk like so mean I jiu cry le..
zhuzhu don blame u..zhuzhu will wait for u de..haiis..9am le..missing my dear ='( how? wat can I do? 9.36am le..haiis..shall get up and brush up..raining outside hope dear wont go under the rain..watching doraemon now..eee only watch awhile jiu no more le..10am jiu finish..l8r meeting shao juan and pass present to her..drag so long le..sian..missing dear..wonder wat dear doing..haiis..10.08am le..dear text mi tat ther no rain..but jiiajiia 4got abt our promise le..cannot slp on bus without zhuzhu..l8r ppl touch her how..haiis..zhuzhu jiu easy worry ma..*worry* who dare to touch her I wont let tat person see till tml sunrise..
10.12am le..actually I don like how jiiajiia talk to mi now..so not like jiiajiia..haiis..10.36am, I went to cook 1 pack of noodles to eat..even though I don feel like eating but don eat l8r jiiajiia angry..so I juz choose beef soup noodles..drink 1 cup of orange juice too..
11am, shao juan text mi say she at cc le so I take her present and went down to meet her and pass her present..We chat awhile and go back hm..Tat present is from last year till now sia..so long le..Now 12.35pm donno dear eat her lunch le ma? haiis..gg to tamp to buy back the watch..sian..need spent money again..haiis..
Now 1.15pm on train le..I finally buy my bus concessions le..$27.50 finally drop..If not every month $52 ex sia..Brought my watch le..buy sth abit different from last time de..my base is abit blue in colour..$750 but got 15% so is $637..ex..heart pain..haiis..Now 2.11pm le..bring mama go eat chicken rice..we walk the whole tamp but like nth to eat lea..sian..don have the feel to eat lea..but still must eat..l8r jiiajiia angry..
3.37pm I went out to go green rc as I got my photography ig projects..Need to shoots some photos..Now 5.55pm juz went out of rc..walking to bedok inter..gg dear house hope can give her a surprise ^^ dear must be very busy..the whole day nv on9 wat app..Hope she wont tired out herself..Now is 6.04pm reached mrt platform le..gg tamp take bus 969 to yishun as it is so late now scare cant reach be4 jiiajiia reached..take bus 854 will be very long..I scare tat I like tat find jiiajiia, she will find mi very disturbing..find mi fan..sorry oh jiiajiia but zhuzhu really miss you..
jiiajiia go hm sure tired tired..busy whole day..jiiajiia..zhuzhu anyhow think..think u with other boy boy now..play till very happy..zhuzhu scare jiiajiia go with other boy boy..den I tell myself cannot anyhow think..sorry oh..zhuzhu really miss you soo much..Now 6.25pm I on bus 969 le..I ran juz now as I saw the bus came..if not need wait very long ar..I don wan let jiiajiia wait so long..Wonder wat jiiajiia doing now? Did she eaten her dinner? Did she drink enough water? Did she take care herself well? *worry* Think alot..scare jiiajiia tired out herself..haiis
Now 6.49pm le..saw jiiajiia retweet tis..
sometimes i feel like nobody likes me
nobody wants me
nobody needs me
and nobody cares.
oh wait its true.
It not true my dear..
I want you!
I need you!
I care for you!
Iloveyou!
dear, no matter wat I will be with you! Now 6.54pm..reached yishun le..gg take bus 812..alot ppl sia..wat should I do to surprise her l8r lea? hmmm ^^ hope she happy to see mi hehe ^^ Now 7.03pm le..juz went up the bus..Saw couples and think back when zhuzhu and jiiajiia on bus..zhuzhu will 1 hand hold the handle and the other hold jiiajiia..sometimes hand pain le still hold cuz don wan let u fall down juz tat nv tell jiiajiia..don wan let her worry ar plus it juz a small matter..jiiajiia fall down BIG matter lea..sometimes jiiajiia slp on zhuzhu hand will pain too but oso nv say cuz I wan to be like tis forever..feeling xin fu xin fu de..hehe^^
7.13pm..I get off the bus le..walking to jiiajiia house..7.17pm I reached jiiajiia house outside le but the wooden door is close..I heard sound so I think her mum is praying ba..so I called yiying to help mi open door..he nv answer..den when I hang up, yiying called back so I asked him help mi open door..7.20pm I went in le..yiying say my timing juz nice..mama praying and he was sleeping..psps..I saw papa den he say "she will be very late hm did she tell u?" I say I noe..8 plus like tat den end..I actually went to check abt the event on Google when I was on bus 969..papa say "u haven eat dinner hor? I oso haven eat..l8r go down eat u treat.." I was like hahas..
Now 7.28pm le sitting in jiiajiia's bed..so long nv sit le..so long nv smell till jiiajiia le..so miss tis smell..aiyo..jiiajiia y u so messy..everything oso throw on bed..>.< I got wrote sth on her post stick when I took her pencil case den I saw den I stick it on her laptop..hehe^^ I hide the 7-11 stickers into dear de pencil case too hehe ^^
7.36pm, mama cook my dinner oso..they eating noodles..mama cook 2 packs of noodles, add egg and alot of vegetable tat brought from Taiwan..mama oso add jiiajiia favourite vegetable hai dai!! hahas zhuzhu started to like le..donno y..actually alot of vegetable cuz of jiiajiia, zhuzhu started like to eat..funny hor..hahas..Lucky jiiajiia not here cuz got alot soup..drink too much instant noodles soup not gd..After eat finish, I help to wash the bowl and plates..yi an and yiying de oso..8.08pm, I went back to room and see my phone and I saw jiiajiia text mi le!! Happy ^^ dear say she still doing food and sending out guest..will very late den end..*worry* jiiajiia tired tired..hope jiiajiia eaten le..zhuzhu will at hm wait for u to come back oh..zhuzhu miss you..8.30pm, I on jiiajiia laptop den I try to unlock her com but I cant..I keep on try den the com say I need to go reset or try 1 more time den I jiu off com le..hope jiiajiia don angry oh..
After tat I went to shower..8.53pm back to bed den I saw jiiajiia text ^^ dear now den eat dinner =( *sayang* tired tired..zhuzhu at hm waiting for you oh hehe^^ hope u will happy when u see zhuzhu when jiiajiia finish 1 whole day of event..9.13pm le..stomach pain..keep booboo..smelly..9.28pm le..jiiajiia text zhuzhu say she on bus gg back sch le..yay! but jiiajiia go back sch still need keep tis and tat..tired tired..Now 9.56pm le..still waiting jiiajiia to be back hm..Must tell myself..when jiiajiia back hm din disturb her..let her go shower..after shower help her dry her hair den when dry le..let her slp slp..don disturb her..jiiajiia already so tired..must rmb..10.01pm le..stomach still pain >.< sian..cant wait jiiajiia to be back..so nervous hehe^^jiiajiia back everything jiu okay le..=)Miss jiiajiia so much!
10.10pm le..I suddenly rmb a quote tat I made myself so once again I pick up the post stick from dear de pencil case and write it den I stick on jiiajiia de laptop again hehe^^ I hope she still rmb tis quote as tis quote I wrote it on blog before..I started to get sleepy le..wake up from 7.30am till now..of cuz I cannot compare to dear..dear more tired, busy the whole day le..*sayang* zhuzhu see jiiajiia like tat *heart pain* =( 10.36pm le..I got headache le..sian..I juz now read back my blog..I wish we can go back like last time..like sweet sweet like tat..zhuzhu can do it..I miss jiiajiia ='( 10.40pm, papa walk in and ask abt jiiajiia le..he say "ni de laopo lea? hai mei you hui lai ar?" den I help dear cover say she on bus gg back sch..haiis..dear faster come back oh..papa oso ask mi hungry anot? he say fridge got curry from ytd de..l8r she come back ask her warm up..I say no need le..I full le..dear zhuzhu alone at hm hen sian..waiting jiiajiia come hm pei zhuzhu..
jiiajiia 10.45pm text zhuzhu say otw hm le ^^ *happy* but jiiajiia say her phone gg no batt plus nv bring portable changer..*worry* haiis..jiiajiia ar..zhuzhu worry lea..haiis..Juz now took out jiiajiia de post stick and write sth on it but i nv tear out..jiu leave it inside jiiajiia de pencil case ba..hehe ^^ now is 11.10pm le..jiiajiia is coming back le..so I must rmb cannot disturb till jiiajiia..l8r she angry..11.11pm..make a wish! done! hehe ^^ 11.21pm le..jiiajiia text zhuzhu say she on bus 812 le hehe^^ nervous~~~I hide everything and I close my lights le..jiu wait for jiiajiia to come back hehe ^^ jiiajiia will be very happy de hehe^^ nervous~~~ damm nervous~~ >.< zhuzhu like counting down sia..now 11.27pm le..hehe^^ 11.29pm, shit..almost forget to off power switch and fan..blur mi =.= zhuzhu always blur blur de..Now off everything le, more like it..only waiting for the main lead to be back ^^ *nervous* so nervous sia..
11.32pm le..hear lift and door sound..should be jiiajiia ba hehe^^ I hide in front of the closet den when dear walk to her bed, I hug her..den dear say she already saw mi standing ther le..sian..After tat, dear on the light and fan and I ask her tat she nv feel surprise? dear say no..My heartache le..haiis..I planned.....but fail...After tat I ask dear abt y her bag got slimming tea and dear say friend give de..drink 1 pack le no effect..I jiu more shag..cuz we said be4 no slimming pills or anything tat is gg to apply on us de..After tat my tears started to drop..dear behind mi like sign..I noe I very emotional and fan now..but wat can I do? I noe it tea but still ther is some kind of chemical inside..I don wan ur body to be spoilt..haiis..After tat dear went to shower..I can see dear already very tired and shag..I heard tat dear wed wont have phone..sian..how do I call dear? Is like I cannot find her the 1 whole day..11.49pm..now my heart more pain..Wo bu fang xin!! haiis...y like tat?! I miss her now even at her house..no phone how?! ='(
I tried my best not to cry in front of her le..I scare dear feel very fan..haiis..
11.53pm le..dear shower hao le..now help papa book phone number..hai le..shall stop here..will continue next blog cuz gg 12am so is tml le..
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