Hi readers,

Today sch start late so wake up late oso hahas..Today writing tis blog is to express my feeling..So wat happened is tat..I feel tat jiiajiia don really telling mi wat she doing..Maybe I always tell her and I hope she will do the same thing back ba..She complain when tat time I in pub den I message her slow..I noe she worried..Worried tat gals come towards mi..

I did sent her message but it hard for mi to keep track of time but still I try to keep message her after a few minutes..But today, she after sent mi say eat baobao le..on 11.41am den I woke up and text her a few den she replied on 12.13pm..Okay she said she busy as she carrying stuff..but when she go to sch..she don even tell mi tat she is on bus, train all tis..Usually she does..okay not usually..is last time..even very before we broke up..way before..ya I say way before..

so y didn't I said last time? Cuz last time I don care..Cuz I wont really think of her but only myself..But now y am I stressing myself so much? Should I change back to last time? So I have lesser stress? Maybe I think too much? Or should I do the same thing like wat she is doing? Okay she today indirectly said she is on train but wat abt bus? 8.07am, she reached sch as tat time she told mi..10.28am den told mi tat she going in for test le..From 8 to 10.30 how long is tat? 2 & 1/2 hrs and wat the fk is she doing in the 2 & 1/2 hrs? She didn't even text mi?! This is not the 1st time le..

Okay maybe I need to control my emotional now..Cooling down 1st..Okay on the same time..10.28am she sent test hao le..wat is going on? go in and come out? after tat 10.29am she say die liao..I oso noe will die..go in and come out..nv do anything..Okay maybe u can tell mi it the phone reception prob so nv sent out on time..On 10.29am she said die liao lo till 11.22am she said she gg eat..wat she doing?

Maybe I expect too much from her? I stressing her too much? Maybe I over care? Or tis is not even care? Den I bo cha liao..Not going to ask so much..Nv say den suan liao lo..since ppl don wan say..Maybe she feel I busybody..I oso don wan tell her I at wher liao all tis..L8r she find I like bo liao..even at hm oso nv tell mi wat she doing..Den I oso don wan say..I nv tell her wher am I den she will ask..It the same thing..Wat do you feel? Of I don tell u wher or wat am I doing..Den I oso found out something..When she nth to do at hm, she message mi more den she in sch..like a few minutes 1 message..Even when she slp den i do sth or i go wher will tell her as i scare her worry..maybe next time no need ba..I juz wan more details.....suan le..I expect too much le..Need to reduce ba..

I oso found out tat she don post our photo on instagram..Normally she does but now only im doing it..Maybe she finds tat she tgt with mi will throw her face ba......suan le...y am i fking stress now...haiis...Lucky i have u blog..at least i can express all my feeling out here..so glad tat i still have a blog...Shall stop here le..

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